Cancer

As I watch you bleed

I die a thousand deaths myself

I wish I could help you

I wish I could keep you

But I keep holding you

As we run out of time

Wishing in every breath

God! I don’t want to lose you now

I cry

Helplessly

A state I could never change

I want to take your pain

You can’t leave me so soon

You can’t leave me in the dark

There is no moon, no sun, no stars

Don’t leave me in the dark

You are everything to me

 My only family

I could never say those until now

That I am helplessly watching you leave

If we go back in time now, lets go back in time

I’ll change all those I could to make you merry

Oh! Breathe again

One more time, please for ever more time

‘God! How could you do this??’

I yell, I scream

I feel a hole in my soul

A cut in my throat

A tear in my heart

Insanity

As I watch you leave…

I die a thousand deaths myself.

You could take with you yourself

But I have you in me, a part of me

That I’ll take with me through life

And to grave. I love you!

-dhira.

A few lines of wisdom

Jab jab dard ka badal chaya,
Jab gam ka saaya lehraya,
Jab aansu palko tak aaya,
Jab yeh tanha dil ghabraya,
humne dil ko yeh samjhaya
dil aakhir tu kyun rota hain
duniya mein yunhi hota hain!

Yeh jo gehre sannate hai
waqt ne sabko hi baante hainn,
thodda gamm hain sabka kissa
thoddi dhup hai sabka hissa,
aankhen teri bekar hi namm hain
har pal ek naya mausam hain
Kyun tu aise pal khota hai,
Dil aakhir tu kyun rota hain!

- from the most poignant bollywood film of the year 'Zindagi na milegi dobara'! (one of the few hindi movies that i could watch again) :)

INTERRUPTIONS…

We connected

Everything was perfect

Oh! Time unexpected

We were infected

(How we were infected)

Mis-led emotions

Mindful confusions

 Troubled confessions

Oh! Obsessions, thou art obsession!

How I wish to be your possession

I will be thy possession…

No connections

We have no connections

No confusion

No more delusion. 

-dhira. (28/4/11)

Counting Stars..!

what if,

one day i wake up

and all the love is gone

you know,

i'll still be living

coz you know i'm strong

loving you

is like counting stars

everytime you look up

you know,

you missed out on some, that's far ..

so i fight baby,

till i find you, love

till there's nothing left, to be found anymore

you see,

love is not easy

and it's us, we drive us crazy

but hold on, please

there's one more to find

ohh there's some more you'll find

loving you

is like counting stars

everytime you look up above

you know,

you'd find some more, some more for us.

-dhira.

6, mar'2011

Are You Ready?

Something’s not right

Is it you or is it me?

Someone’s got to hold on tight

Is it time to break free?

Let it be

Do we let it be?

Love will set us free

Are you ready?

Let it be

Do we set us free?

Time will only heal

Are you ready?

Breathe out now

Aren't you choking?

Enough with the vows

Are you still holding?

Are you ready?

Are you ready?

We could make it

Are you ready?

Are you ready?

We could break it

Are you ready?

Are you ready?

No more faking

Who else to believe in

Hearts can be deceiving

Time in to give in

No more to grieving

-dhira (23/5/10)

Without my One & Only Star :(

Now i don't know what to do?

what to do? what to do?

what to do? what to do?

without you...

A whole world lies in

between you and me

a whole story lies

amiss and incomplete

And i don't know what to do

what to do? what to do?

what to do? what to do?

without you..

i can only wait and see

time is all i have with me

when time was all i'd been cursing,

Now, time is all i have with me

to take me to my destiny,

you are my destiny,

my reason one and only,

The only real thing

So, i wait, and i wait, and i wait,

and i wait, and i wait and i wait

i'll wait

cause' i don't know what else to do? (what to do? what to do?)

what could i do? (what to do? what to do?)

Without you...

-dhira (15th may'10)

Love, Lose and Getting Away !!

You...
ohh I never meant to hurt you
You were the precious something
I had ever had

Lose..
Ohh how i never meant lose you
But it's just me, y'know, to lose
everytime.. I've wanted this bad

Love...
ohh...love
It's just a tale i've heard them tell
but i know for the time i felt
yet i failed to understand you..
you say i never understood

Hate..
ohh how love can turn to hate
the deepest cut you make
I keep making my mistakes
and you know it's insane...
How i can't sustain

Yes, sometimes it's me..
just me, in me
to let you go away, let us get away
to let you fall, and let you fail
I can't stand.. to be like them

I love to, I tend to drift away
You should know ..I never meant to drift away
Never meant to fade...

But You...
Could try...
see how you shine
Without me, you're so fine !

Stay..
Isn't always easy to stay
We could swear to ourselves
yet find an easy way

Love...
ohh..it's you and it's love
I don't belong...
but it's hard to get away
it's always hard to get away !!


-dhira (18th apr'10)